A More Controlled Mindset, kinda

So, as most of my recent posts have stated, my life has been baby filled lately. Sorta like, this…


If you can’t hear her saying this in your head, you fail. Ha. Anyway, that’s pretty much the summary of life here lately- everyone but me! And those who haven’t spit out a kid are announcing they are about to.


And this ↑↑↑↑↑↑ has been my mental staus as of late. But as all feverers know too well, at some point we have to get our heads out of the clouds and put our feet back on the path to ACTUALLY achieving a pregnancy and motherhood.


So, for me, this is the waiting on the weight game. But, I have to remind myself a healthy me will increase the chances of a healthy baby and that, my friends, is worth the wait. ♡




Even though I am not yet pregnant, I fear things about pregnancy.

The biggest fear being a c-section.

I found this blog post via Pintrest:
6 Ways to Avoid a Cesarean Section

Great blog post! I am already working on tip #1. But this post states that 1 in 3 women give birth via a section.  ONE IN THREE!
Those odds frighten me! I DO NOT want to get cut. The idea nauseates me.

It also lists several “interventions” that my friends think I am crazy for wanting to avoid. The main one being- an epidural. This article confirms one of my reasons I do not want one, it slows labor!

My reasons to say NO to the big E:

1. It slows labor. ^^^ Covered that.

2. Big needle + Spine= No. I do not covet the idea of an epically huge needle going anywhere near my spinal cord. Nope.

3. My mom. When my mom had me, the doctors knicked her spinal cord while giving the epidural causing her to have a debilitating headache. I was sent to the NICU and she couldn’t even get out of the bed to see me. Again, no thanks!

There are more reasons, but those are the major three. Call me crazy, but I’d rather “feel it all” than have the complications!

Next intervention mentioned is Induction.

Now, this is particularly relevant as my “best friend” is being induced in about 6 hours. I do not agree with this option- but she is so over being pregnant that I do not think she paused to consider it is not a good option.

I like my MIL’s saying: “When the apple’s ripe,  it’ll fall.”

Due dates are just good guesses, anyway. I think inducing is an easier option for the doctor and the mothers are so ready… they don’t pause to think. Starting labor before the cervix is ready and adding Pitocin is a bad cocktail of hard labor without results. Which coincides with… dun dun duuuuunnnn… C-SECTION!

Check out the article. It makes a lot of sense and to me, confirms my stance of au natural birthing is the way to go.

Just wanna talk?

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In Another’s Words

I found another blog to follow.

Plus Size Birth
Here is the article that I will be speaking of:
How Much Respect Do Fat Women Deserve?

It is a good question. The author discusses the fact that in Labor and Delivery, plus sized women get very little respect. Criticized, made fun of and left to feel like failures, PSW are often called “C-section Walking” according to this blog post. I can see the trend. Of everyone around me who have had children, more PSW are pressured into giving up and having a section. I am afraid to be in that statistic.

This blog has also landed me into a strange area. My goal is to *not* be plus sized before, during and after my pregnancy. But what constitutes plus size? How will my body react to my weight loss? Will my target weight correspond to being “non-plus size”? All that leads me to the question- will I ever shake the stigma of being plus size?

As far as respect goes, I’ve long gotten past that. Well, maybe not past, but “used to” it. Shopping for clothes is my least favorite activity. I see the looks when I follow my best friend into certain shops. The internal scream of frustration when flipping to the back of the clothing rack and it ends at a large. Holding up an item that says it’s XL but scoffing because it looks like toddler clothing. The feeling of tears burning the back of my eyelids as that cute pair of jeans only comes up to, but not over my thighs.

If you ask me, people need not be harsh or judging toward PSW. We judge and demean ourselves enough as it is. When I put that pair of jeans back on the rack, I don’t need your stare that says “I knew that wouldn’t fit.” What you didn’t know is that it didn’t take me 10 mins to peel out of the jeans. It took 10 mins for my face to return to a normal, non tear stained state.

I’ve strayed a bit. My objective here is to: 1. Give my perspective and 2. Get other’s perspective.  Do you agree with me? Agree with the other blog? How do you feel? Plus sizes and not. Gimme thoughts below! Til next time! ♥


The Ol’ Oven…and Pre-Heating It

Ladies! I need your advice. I have times when my cycle gets off kilter. I have taken Chasteberry in the past and it kicked it right back into place. I was thinking of starting this again, but as a daily regimen along with a prenatal to start “pre-heating” my oven, so to speak.

Any of you out there tried this? Have you had success? If not with this combo, what worked for you? I would love for some feedback. As I am on a journey not just to lose weight, but to condition my entire body for carrying a child and of course “the oven” is the most crucial part. Thanks in advance!