All That I Want to Say

It’s there.
I know it is. So much I want to say.
So much that needs to escape my head.

But, like an over crowded theater when someone pulls the fire alarm… every bit of info rushes to leave, but gets stuck at the door.

Somedays I just want to shut off.
Reboot. Recharge.
Turn off all my senses and just lie stagnating on the floor.
No one to answer to, no one to help, no one to call… no one to worry about.

Just do and be- nothing. Nothing at all. Have the world pretend I do not exsist, just for one day.

But would just one day be enough?
I would only worry about the next day…

Does this feeling ever stop? Feeling of just wanting time to pause and catch my breath? I feel like I am chasing life…






Yes, mes amis, this app DOES work.

My BS radar went off about this “gimmick” when I first heard of it, but lo and behold… this joker is no joke!

Haven’t heard of it? Oh, friend… let me tell you of this magical little critter! Basically- as the ads for it say, “Shop at Wal-Mart, scan your receipts with the app, they will check competitor prices and if there is a lower advertised price- they refund you the difference! ”

I didn’t believe it would work. Why would they tell you of lower prices elsewhere? Oh… but they do!


**Soooo Magicalllll*

And you get it back on a e-gift card or a prepaid debit card!


Getting close to $20.00 already! I love it! No more hunting ads for better prices! It’s pretty great!

I am unaware if you lovelies outside the states have Wally World? If you don’t, do you have a “big box store” like it? Like, the one stop shop? Or is this just pure, unadulterated American laziness? 🙂 ha.

Tell me what you think! Til next time! ♥♥♥


New Year’s Confession


So, it has hit me again. Take me,  the only woman in the room not holding her own baby, add in a night notorious for resolutions and sprinkle a Sangria on top and that my friends is a recipe for Baby Fever Blurbs!


Yes. Another Baby Fever blunder! (Enter slow clap here)

So, after a (few) Sangrias, I admit to Bestie then to Butthead that I wanted to be pregnant before the close of 2015. (D’oh)

Bestie found this info to be fabulous, Butthead- not so much. Actually… I think it freaked him the hell out. I don’t think he sees our pre-baby plan completed by then. (Sigh)

He kissed my forehead and said, “In due time.”




Two Months


It has been TWO MONTHS since I fully quit smoking and switched completely to vaping!


I have run into a bunch of trying experiences I worried about and thus far have passed with flying colors! The biggest was New Years, drinking and not smoking.

Although, I had a moment of doubt- especially with smokers being there and smelling it- I stepped away, took my vape, and reminded myself how FAR I’ve come and the benefits I’ve already seen. I realized I did NOT want to loose all that progress!



Til next time♥


No Filter Holiday Edition

So, spending the better part of two weeks with MIL has provided quite a few No Filters and some bad behavior as well. Enjoy!


-So, Butthead has two brothers, one who MIL lives with and the other who lives a few hours away. I use facebook to show MIL pics of brother 2’s kids. He and his wife have a 10 year old boy and an 8 month old baby girl. After seeing her Christmas pictures,  this happens:

MIL: “See, (Butthead), (Bro#2) makes pretty babies, so you can too! “

(Blank stare exchange between Butthead and I)

– Bro#1’s girlfriend, we will call her Hippie, was making cupcakes with her daughter before dinner one night. MIL was already in super rare form, tired from work and apparently grouchy … cringe worthy moments followed. Hippie kept her cool, though, God love her.

MIL: Cupcakes before dinner?

Hippie: Yes ma’am, we ran out of time earlier.

MIL: Don’t fill those cups so high, you won’t have enough for all the cups.

Hippie: (Forces a smile as she side eyes MIL) (Pours last of batter in a cup, then gets spoon to dip from others to fill remaining two cups)

MIL: Eh, don’t do that, just put water in those so they don’t burn.

Hippie: (Visibly aggravated, but still smiling, puts water in tray…)

MIL: Don’t splash the others!

Hippie: (no longer smiling) I got it, thanks. (Puts pan in oven)

MIL: Should you be cooking those while dinner is being cooked?

Hippie: (goes to take them out, very agrivated, but forces another smile)

MIL: No, no. .. leave them. They are already in there.

Hippie: (retreats to room, biting a hole in her lip… I’m sure.)

– So, after that debacle, we finsh dinner and MILs phone rings. It says it’s her sister, which is strange because she never calls so late. Turns out it’s her sister’s daughter calling to tell her that her sister is in the hospital. This upsets her, but she trys not to show it… until:

(me, MIL, and Bro#1 are talking in the kitchen)

*pop*pop*pop* from outside…

MIL: Damn it! Again!? (Her dogs start going ape)

Bro#1: Calm down, Mom. They’ll quit soon enough. It’s just some firecrackers…

MIL: No! I’ve had enough of their crap! (If she was a cartoon, I am positive steam would be rolling out her ears.)

Bro#1: Mom… (turns to put milk back in fridge)… just… (turns back and she’s gone) …well, (hears front door shut) …shit.

*sitting at the kitchen table I can hear her thru the window ripping the neighbor a new one. A few minutes later I hear her, Butthead and Bro #1 come back in*

Butthead: Mom, you can’t do that shit! He’s a G R O W N man!

MIL: I can’t… right now… I have to go get a cool rag. (Asthma/BP acting up… had to go calm herself)

**knock on front door**

Butthead and Bro#1: Shit!

**After a few minutes, she returns to kitchen, a bit calmer…and they return from the front porch.**

Butthead: Mom, the neighbor came to apologise. (Turns out he told them he had not been scolded like that since he was a kid-haha! )

MIL: So?

Butthead: So? ! He felt bad he upset you!

MIL: Yeah, right!

Butthead: He was just having fun with his little boy, he doesn’t get to see him often!

MIL: Who does that?! Fireworks with kids… pfft. (Ill-logic ramping up)

Butthead: Uh, a lot of folks…

** so this continues for about 10 mins, logical vs illogical, until…**

MIL: I can’t argue with you, (Butthead), you are too logical!

HAHAHA! This is literally the closest EVER she has come to admitting defeat! EVER! Seriously!

That’s all for now. Hope you enjoyed! Til next time! ♡♥♡♥

Holiday Hoopla


I hope everyone had an AMAZING holiday! I did. Spent time with family and I’ve got great stories to tell. I apologise for my absence, but it was a busy, busy holiday season.

We spent a lot of time over at MILs house. I had to stay close because I ended up working with her and covering some shifts for her. Then just spending quality holiday time over there. It was a blast. I have some great No Filters for you. I’ll be posting those, a new baby fever post and a new vape post!

Random hilarity I must share from earlier this evening. Tonight was our first night back home that we could sit and relax and just kick back. Our kitty baby was loving all the snuggles.

I picked Ninja up and cuddled him, remarking to Butthead, “I love smelling his fur, it smells warm and snuggly!”

To this Butthead replies: “Good thing you are not allergic or it’d smell like anaphylaxis. ”

Haha! Never missed a beat! Ah… I love him!

Stay tuned for more posts! I have much to tell y’all! Gotta catch up!